At the beginning, Erin kept saying that’s what she was used to hearing. I wanted her to know that just because I didn’t want a relationship then it didn’t mean I was going anywhere. I like her, and no one else. But my last relationship was so rushed. And it ended terribly. My goal was not to end it, number 1. And number 2, to actually get to know her before putting labels on things. And timing is such a bitch right now!
Last night I asked her if I could call her my girlfriend. It got to the point where I knew I didn’t want anyone else. I want her. She answered with a very sleepy “yes”, which wasn’t convincing one bit. She fell right asleep and I stayed awake for at least another hour, wanting to talk about it but not wanting to wake her up. I had a very restless night, and when she asked how I slept I blamed it on her bed hogging. She does tend to do that.
And now I’m having such a restless day. I’m so anxious.
This morning on the way to her house I asked if she remembered me asking. She said only vaguely, so I recounted her sleepy response. Then she talked all about how during summer she’ll be way too busy, and she’ll feel bad not responding and giving me time.
My take? I like you, but… Not enough.